Linda Evangelista is showing her fans how a cosmetic procedure left her "brutally disfigured" by sharing photos of herself for the first time in years.

Once one of the most photographed people in the world, supermodel Linda Evangelista has been living in seclusion for almost five years. 

In this week's issue of PEOPLE, Evangelista, 56, opens up about the emotional and physical pain that has cast a shadow on her life in recent years

after she claims CoolSculpting — a popular, FDA-cleared "fat-freezing" procedure that's been promoted as a noninvasive alternative to liposuction — left her "permanently deformed" and "brutally disfigured.

Evangelista filed a lawsuit in September suing CoolSculpting's parent company, Zeltiq Aesthetics Inc

for $50 million in damages, alleging that she's been unable to work since undergoing seven sessions of CoolSculpting in a dermatologist's office from August 2015 to February 2016.

The People story included exclusive new photos of Evangelista and she described the "bulges are protrusions" on her body.

"They're hard. If I walk without a girdle in a dress, I will have chafing to the point of almost bleeding

Because it's not like soft fat rubbing, it's like hard fat rubbing," she said.

"I loved being up on the catwalk. Now I dread running into someone I know," she tells PEOPLE through tears in this week's cover story.